Thursday, March 27, 2008
Got a friend ^^
This blog is currently not meant to be read by u guys(YTzens) as u will find it unreasonable or wouldn't understand me at all cuz wat i am going to put down relates to the past. I am different from what i am in primary school than what i am in secondary... So if u guys dun wanna change ur opinion about me, please (i beg) do not continue reading.
The influence is different here... In primary school, even though how lazy i am, I study hard to match up to best. Kim peng was average (again not meant for poeple to read) and i was like top 8 (she top 14+ i think). Now in secondary, she is the best and i am still top 10. When i tried to beat her last year during term 3 test, i easily got 3. I've been trying in primary school and now trying in secondary school seems less encouraging than primary.
Seeing my brother achievements (R.I. , RJC, NUS,) with an aggregate of 274, it feels that i suck all the way to the bottom. He's the top malay in singapore for his level but still having difficulty finding a job for his career. As i reflect upon my studies, not in any special school, low agregate of 245 and influence in study is deteriorating, my chance of full-filling my dream of either becoming a physicist or an astronaut seems so slim. The pace here is so slow compare to nush and slow compare to primary school. how the hell am i going to get to nush in the first place *sigh*.
In primary school, I'm allowed to say out any facts regarding science and general knowledge but in this school, whoever does it is considered and outcast. Nobody cares about this type of things. A few of my classmates in primary school will share facts and challenges while only jokes are shared here.
On the good side, i like the programmes which the school provides. Hmm... i gtg now so i'll end this post with this song which describe my current situation.
this is my life
its not what it was before
all these feelings i've shared
and these are my dreams
that i'd never lived before
somebody shake me
'cause i
i must be sleeping
[chorus]
now that we're here,
it's so far away
all the struggle we thought was in vain
all the mistakes,
one life contained
they all finally start to go away
now that we're here its so far away
and i feel like i can face the day i can forgive
and i'm not ashamed to be the person that i am today
these are my words
that i've never said before
i think i'm doing okay
and this is the smile
that i've never shown before
somebody shake me 'cause i
i must be sleeping
[chorus]
i'm so afraid of waking
please don't shake me
afraid of waking
please don't shake me
[chorus]
~†hè ¤ R€†ÂRЙ~
9:47:00 PM
